Well, it's actually day two of my journey, literally, and I woke up feeling like I had hit a wall. Trust me, it wasn't a good feeling. I had no where to be this morning, with my car suddenly acting a little crazy and no appointments, it set in that I was technically unemployed again. Having realized a long time ago that this was a place I hated being but somehow seemed to find myself more times than I cared.
Let me bring you up to speed, otherwise it may not make sense. I've been working for a year as a paralegal/office manager and loved my job. The attorney is absolutely great and we still have a great relationship. Due to circumstances beyond my control I needed to resign (I know you don't get that but it's ok). It was a tough month for us both knowing the day was coming. Not to toot my own horn but I was a very valuable team member and I know that he appreciated it. Any way, April Fools day was the first day of (what I am now calling) the Journey To My Wealthy Place. I'll explain that later, actually should be self explanatory but the reasoning my escape some.
So, random surfing found a grant fair on April 1 and that was great. My background includes grant/proposal writing and I happen to be the executive director for a community organization at present. So on the first day of my journey I felt like all was right with the world and this was definitely a step in the right direction. I felt "back in the saddle". I left a world of meetings and conferences and my own schedule when I came back to Delaware eight years ago and while I've missed it, the climate for business, entrepreneurship in Delaware is quite different, especially in Sussex County. That being said, the first day of the Journey To My Wealthy Place was a great day. Conference, lunch with a colleague at Olive Garden, picked up my son on the way home....was a full and rewarding day.
Morning of day two.... uuuggghhhh!!!!. I woke to my alarm at 6:00 a.m. Immediately fear set in at the fact that I was really unemployed... AGAIN!. I lay there thinking that I had no appointments with new (or even old) clients, no meetings to attend, no office to go to, no place to be really at all. I could feel depression trying to slink into bed with me. I began to talk to God and even that felt forced. He knows my situation. All the pleading and promises had not changed what was. So, sat up, thought maybe I'll call my partner, she's usually very pumped up and it's get me re-excited. Nope. Called her, she couldn't talk because she had somewhere to be. The "I'll call you back" left me alone on the side of my bed trying to find a reason to get up and run this new business we had started. I realize I didn't tell you about that.
So, when the decision was made for me to leave the law firm, a client/friend had long ago suggested we find something we could do together. There seemed to be a synergy there that hadn't been with others in my lifetime. So, we, under the grace of God, came up with a business and in less that a week, launched our new venture. We've already had some disagreements that we had to step back and pray about but we came through them. Honest communication is the key. We knew each other but having to talk everyday and make decision from two different mind sets proved quite challenging. We are confident however, we will survive, even if we come out with a limp. :)
Soooo, it's still the morning of day two, after the phone call, feeling a little lost, I began to coach myself. I heard myself saying to other clients, you've got to engage in life. Don't dwell in the feelings of remorse or regret. Get up, get dressed and get going. So, I got up, got dressed (showered) and got going. Every morning, I was used to stopping by my favorite store for a cup of coffee, some apple slices and popcorn on my way to the office. So, I went and got my coffee and breakfast (yes, I like white cheddar popcorn for breakfast), went back to my office, which is where I am typing this blog for you and am not getting going. :)
I hope to take you along on the Journey To My Wealthy Place as a means of encouraging others and also receiving encouragement. Oh yes, the title. I named it the Journey To My Wealthy Place because not only have I been told many times about my abundant skills and turned down for being over qualified but I've received many a prophetic word as to moving into My Wealthy Place in this season (my fellow Christians will understand that), so while there may be other days like today (hit the wall), I am going to hold on that I am not only in the will of God but that I am on my way and this is the beginning of the Journey To My Wealthy Place.
**Will be posting every day, sometimes maybe even several times per day, so be sure to check back and please feel free to share with me, talk back. I won't be so alone in this journey! :) ttyl